Monday, July 9, 2018

Ramping it up a bit and Epic Napping!

Monday (1) Quick walk around the camp for the last time before we headed back south.  Vermont is so nice and calm.  I really enjoy going up there.  One thing we noted was the lack of fast food restaurants where we were.   I'm sure they exist but it wasn't until we were in MA until we saw a sign for Mc Donalds or the ubiquitous Dunkin' Donuts.  These New Englanders love their Dunkin' for sure!


Ok so I don't have many pictures sans beer - don't get alarmed! Water is not a fun feature in picutures!
I love this hammock!


We got home to the heat and worked on our separate chores, Jax hung out on the porch.  I put the AC in the bedroom, Dave questioned if I knew how to do this.  In this heat (anything above 70 is hot to me and add in the humidity and my fuse is non-existent) it took all I had to not say anything.   Who bought the darned AC in the first place, huh???    The copper roof on the porch was so cool, I nearly laid down to take a nap and cool off!!! 


Jax Melted it was so hot in VT


Funny aside, a few weeks back I was sitting out on the porch in the Adirondack chair, Jax had gone inside for dinner.  I was kind of slumped in it, simply being sloppy in the way I was sitting.  All of a sudden the car driving by stopped and rapidly backed up the driver shouting through the passenger window "ARE YOU OK??"  he thought I was passed out on the porch!!  That really gave me hope for humanity.  I love sitting on the porch in the evening, there is a cool breeze and it is shady.

Tuesday (0) Back to work for a day, the week with two Mondays and two Fridays, not feeling like doing anything in the heat, so I didn't.  I really am struggling to get my hydration under control.


It is a light beer (light in color) and I love it!
And no this was NOT my hydration plan.

Since I don't have much to say about this day I'll tell you the story about the second bald eagle Dave and I have seen on our travels this spring.  We were heading south on I-91 in MA and saw the bald eagle flying towards the median.  And then he flew in front of us, like 50 feet!  We were terrified this was going to end with us killing him and going to jail.  That bald eagle swooped down, just as calm as could be and picked up road kill and then flew beside the truck with the carnage in his claws, flapping those huge wings and looking over with those piercing brown eyes with this "Gotcha" sort of look.  It was so freaking amazing.  I'd love to have a picture of it to share, however, I'm more glad the image is burned in my brain.  So amazing.  And I'm glad he knew what he was doing and we didn't go to jail for killing a bald eagle. 

Wednesday (0) I got the gravel tire on the front of the Dolce adjusted the breaks so they hit the rim correctly and pumped up the tire,  TOO BIG!!!  No way!!  I have to go down to a smaller gravel tire, I was hoping for a 32mm to cushion some of the blow.   Dave thought the back looked bigger so I ripped off the tire from the front, pulled out the tube and put the whole thing on the back tire.  Nope... the same problem.  I can get 26 or 28 gravel tires I may get one of each and take or send back what doesn't work. If the local bike shop has the Panaracer Gravel King in the right size or not...


Something more expected

Meanwhile, I wrapped new bar tape on the handlebars of the Ruby and decided to hold off on anything further on the Dolce. 

That activity caused quite the sweat fest I took a break and read for a few hours.  Trying to not slump sloppily in the chair on the porch for fear of freaking out another person! 

Thursday (1)  Dave left for NC at 3:30 a.m. and Jax realized he was gone and sulked.  He is fine when I leave for work M - F, that is normal, that is part of the schedule.  However, these deviations really throw him for a loop.  I'm sure he is bored home alone, I didn't plan well for working from home and had a meeting I had to be in person for.

We took a stroll downtown so I could take a book back to the library and he could catch up on all the local dog gossip.  Clearly, a lot has been going on in town, he had a lot of smelling and replying to do and once home passed out in exhaustion.  I was really pleased he seems to be much more accepting of an in-town walk and running errands than he was a few months ago.  There was only one struggle getting him to stop paying attention to a man with a beard and a baseball cap, otherwise, people with strollers and people, in general, didn't seem to phase him.  Although he was a bit wiggy with a couple behind us and he pulled over to smell something and waited until they passed till he resumed our walk.  He's a weird dog.


Greenie saves the day!


I had to go in to be part of a clinical experiment for a dermatology fellow trying to determine what people interpret as a "thin layer".  Very cool.   Oh and Mikey needed to stop by to check on me because I haven't posted on Strava in a few days.  It loads, I don't bother to make most stuff public, it's nothing interesting so why bother?

Friday (2) Clearly a bit too long of a walk for Jax, he kind of melted but managed to revive himself splashing water all over the floor of the pantry and hanging out in the cool spot between the ceiling fans where the AC bounces off the ceiling and down on him.  We were supposed to have torrential rain most of the day and getting him out after wasn't going to be a great option, although pig pen would love to get muddy and sloppy.  



OMG I'm tired!

The weather didn't pan out as predicted, oh well, it did get dry and cool and by the evening the window AC was off the windows open and we were camped out on our spot on the porch for the evening.  

Saturday (30 + 2) The plan was 60 miles of hills, Grace delivered 3K of climbing in 30 miles and I was, stick a fork in me, done!  I could have curled up for a nap by the side of the road after the last big one!   Ro and Grace did another 20 miles, for 4K in gain.  I maybe probably could have managed that, but I'm trying to learn when enough is enough.  My goal was to get in the hill climbs, the tough 10 and 15% ones as my last nasty hill work out before the Mount Washington Century.  There will be 6K of gain over 109 miles, the hills are long and enjoyable to climb, not short, steep, and pure torture like the ones we climbed.  I had not been on the bike in a week and really didn't do much physical activity during the week, I was spent, frustrated, overheated, and in need of a real break, which I got.  No point in overdoing it the first day back!


Jax doing his Arte Johnson impersonation
"Very interesting"


Jax and I went for a walk in the late afternoon, we had to make a deposit in the First National Poop and Trust because someone thinks he can poop on the front lawn...  I told him that made him geriatric, I don't think he understood me or found that funny, ha ha ha...   On the way home, he decided he'd try and I'm not sure what, catch? meet? sniff? attack? Yoko the Crazy Orange neighborhood cat.  That didn't go so well and Yoko spit on him, puffed up and stood there spitting and hissing.  Jax lost his shit and I pulled him away.  All I could picture was Jax as some stupid punk doing the "you want a piece of me" routine to an uninterested bystander.  He really should be embarrassed for himself.  He wasn't.  Yoko wandered by later in the evening flicking his fluffy orange tail at Jax.  


Sunday (27 + 1.5)  Mikey texted about riding on Saturday, I couldn't, other plans, but I could on Sunday so we met up with Tommy for the flat beach loop.  Some of the 'hills' felt like mountains to my quads, but it was a super mellow nice ride.  I'm glad they invited me along!  Nice to jibber jabber and ride.  They took me on some new to me roads and I have some more to add into when I venture out solo!

The overwhelming urge to nap won and I had a 3-hour epic* nap making me feel like a new person.  What is it with those naps where you cannot move, or think you cannot move and are so completely out you wake up not knowing what time it is or even where you are?  


Jax is on the lookout for that Crazy Orange cat


*I know epic is overused it has lost its meaning... but seriously this was epic, at least in my book of not using that word except when it is really called for!

Jax and I took a stroll after dinner and he was so well behaved.  I am SO not used to that!!!  Good Boy!

Knitting:

A little progress on the socks, mostly Rory and I jibber jabber.  At least my shoulder is feeling better, maybe I can avoid rotator cuff PT?

I think I remembered why I got tired of socks!  Or maybe I'm not stationary enough to enjoy knitting... guess we shall see when the snow flies again.

Books:

"Fahrenheit 451"

by Ray Bradbury

Status:  Finished

Wow, for something written more than 50 years ago about the future, Bradbury comes close to nailing it.  While we don't have surround TV in our parlors, we do have devices attached to our hands that our faces are constantly staring at....


The clear message: books are only dangerous when read, they are ok to be collected and displayed, not read.  

"Beneath a Scarlet Sky"
by Mark Sullivan

I started this a while back, December I believe.  I forgot about it until I was looking for something to read on my Kindle.  Picking this back up I have no idea why it lingered, other than my brain was only in the mood for solitaire in the evenings.  I thought the writing was great, I had a little movie going on in my head as I read!  So much has been written about WWII, this was a perspective I had not run across.  The story from the Italian (non-fascist) perspective, a spy into the Nazi machine.  When I think of the Italians in WWII I think of Mussolini and the contributions the Italian forces made to the Holocaust, siding with Hitler and the Axis powers.  This is very different, one man risked everything, and lost most everything, to spy against Hitler and those under his command.  

"Providence"

Crimetown by Gimlet media

Not a book, a podcast.  Thought I'd give them a go again. First up is Providence, all about a city once run by mobsters, the Patriarca crime family out of Federal Hill. I'm midway through but it doesn't seem like the Prince of Providence, Buddy Cianci, was ever really going to clean up a crime city.  He, may he rest in peace, was a politician thinking government could be run like a business minus strict and enforceable anti-corruption policies.  So far this continues to enforce my skeptical belief that someone, anyone, is truly out to make the greater good for the majority.  People working on such a grand scale are out to make the greater good for their own bank account and ego.

Don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying this, however clearly, Buddy's motive wasn't cleaning up the city, it was being the big boss.  Kiss my ring, pay tribute, and all that Bullshit.

Mileage:

Feet:  8
Saddle:  58

Summary:

All in all, I think I can sum up the first 6 months of 2018 as a challenge, a challenge I believe I met head-on, of course, I had my meltdowns and my frustrations and a few frothing fits.  But all in all, I'm OK.  I'm nowhere near the mileage I was last year - I haven't actually checked, I stopped my spreadsheet, but I'm pretty sure I'm not and I'm pretty sure I'm going to leave that spreadsheet to die a slow death. The past 12 months have been a challenge.






Sincerely,
Beth, remembering "comparison is the theif of joy".

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

A much needed low activity week

Monday (0) While I'd love to have gotten out, I didn't.  My body was sore, walking up stairs was taxing, and my resting heart rate was not where it should be.  I suppose listening to all these signs I did the right thing, right?

I have noticed since I stopped running my resting heart rate has gone down significantly and I've lost weight with no change in my diet or drinking.  Or this is because I've stopped pushing it so much and so hard and my body isn't continually swollen with inflammation?  Or this is because the Lupus is somewhat under control?  It is probably all of the above and I can't and shouldn't point to one thing as the cause. This has not been a controlled experiment, rather a very uncontrolled experiment.

While I miss running I don't miss the constant pain.  As I told Eric in the gym on Tuesday, I had no idea I could actually feel this good, is this what normal people feel like?  He laughed and complimented me on always finding the bright side.  I appreciate that.  It is hard sometimes but who really wants to listen to someone complain?

Tuesday (6) I took a brisk walk down to Eastern Point Beach and back, saw Steve and Brandon.  Funny, father and son have the same running stride, the floppy left foot.  I'm sure Steve really enjoys the summers of running with his son at lunch.



The Pawcatuck River as seen from the road leading to the entrance to Riverwood Preserve


Jax and I went on a short hike in Riverwood.  It was mostly peaceful and he didn't have much to say but seemed annoyed I kept talking to him.  I miss Gus and Giz, they listened or at least didn't make faces at me.

Wednesday (5.7)  Hills with Ro, we eased off a bit on the big ones.  I had some pleurisy on Monday and Tuesday, it was worse on Monday, to the point of coughing hurt, taking a deep breath was horrific, but coughing, ugh.  It really cleared up on Tuesday and was gone by the time I woke up on Wednesday.  Not exactly sure what causes it, but it does seem to happen when I've been pushing up against the edge of overdoing it.  If my body is going to send that out as a warning sign rather than dive into the full-fledged feeling of I just ran a marathon with the flu and hungover I'll listen to it.  Trust me it is hard to function otherwise.  Oh yeah, let us not forget not being able to remember how to spell my name or find words.  Good times.  Good times.


I really didn't have a lot of pictures this week.
A favorite beer - Rachel asked her dad to bring me a 6 pack


After a half an hour of fighting with the rim and tire, I got the gravel tires on Dolly's front tire.  And then the tube had a hole.  More fighting to get it all off and then back on with a new tube.  Now it is all on and pumped up and holding air.  I'll deal with the back on Thursday.  Holy crap what is it with the tires these days?  Am I that weak I have to stand on the freaking tire and take a hairdryer to the tire (thank you JV for THAT tip) to get the tire on the rim?  My fingers hurt!  Thank goodness I'm not a girly girl with nails, they'd be toast!

I hope this works... It will open up more options for fall winter and spring riding.

Thursday (1) Rain was predicted most of the day and into the evening.  We kind of needed it and I was happy to have a slow day.  Work got chaotic with Cecilia's last day and OMG can I get into her eMail archives and what about this and what about that.  She tried to slip out quietly, she didn't succeed without having to be bombarded by me.

Jax led us on a short hike in Burlingame in between the raindrops.


Another favorite!  Dave is supposed to bring me back some from NC. 


I did get the back derailleur adjusted so I could get into my granny gear, I'm still getting a bigger cassette.  When Dave checked my work on the back derailleur he noted my front wheel was rubbing.  I said, yeah I have to move the break assembly.  He plinked some of the spokes and said "No, your wheel is out of alignment, have you hit any big bumps?   I replied "I bike in RI and CT, of course I'm hitting the occasional pot hole."  He plinked the spokes and tightened this one and that one and re-plinked until it all sounded right.  All the plinking sounded the same to tone deaf me, to him there was a difference.  

Friday (1) Camping in Vermont's Coolidge State Park was on tap for the weekend!  It was going to be a hot one.  This is the first horribly hot with no relief  in the temp or the dew point for the summer season.  Considering we are almost in July I was hoping to skip this least favorite part of the summer season.  No luck.


Filling up with water for the weekend!


The camp loop was a mile, 1/2 up hill and 1/2 down hill.  The only flat parts in Coolidge are the camp sites, and some of them aren't even flat! 


 Very sweet park for camping and hiking


All in all we are figuring out our roles in getting out of the house and on the road and into the camp grounds.  Dave does the grocery shopping for the trip.  If I could only convince him he is also qualified to grocery shop for home since he is the one who eats there most....  My job is to plan the route which I didn't know was my job, so it is done on the fly consulting a big map of New England and this wayyyyy coool spiral bound very detailed atlas.  I have nearly stopped trying to 'blow up' the picture in the atlas with my fingers.  You know, how you blow up a picture on the phone screen.  Dave laughs when he sees me do this and comments on how much screen time have I had lately.  Shaddup.  Jax's job is to not get in the way or run out of the house when we are making multiple trips in and out.  He is not very good at his job, or he doesn't trust us to remember to bring him?

Saturday (37 + 1) Because the temp on Saturday was going to be cooler than Sunday, I got to do my adventure first. Like 90 is cooler than 92...  My 62 mile ride turned into a 37 mile ride when an hour into it it was hot and cloudless and I was miserable.  It is much easier to be hot and miserable when you are with a friend or friends riding.  It is not so much fun alone...  I'm disappointed I wasn't willing to suck it up and just ride the planned route, not disappointed enough to whine and bitch and beat myself about the head and neck over it.  I also think I was a bit worn out from the last two weeks of some pretty intense activity.  


The covered bridge I missed on my last ride


Being the gentleman he is he took my bike out of the back of the truck and noted my headset was quite loose and explained how to properly tighten it.  All of this adjustment is a result of the very bumpy roads I ride on.  Makes sense, and I honestly didn't notice because it was so gradual.    


A cool Dragon for Sheila!


The ride was good.  Next time I'll do what I planned on doing.  At least this time I did get to see a covered bridge I missed from my last VT ride. 

Sunday (1) It was hot, Jax was not at all into doing anything.  I certainly didn't want to do anything. I bought a hammock before we left and we spent the day chasing the shade, and me hosing down Jax and swinging in the hammock while reading and Jax watching our friendly butter fly and napping.  This was the most chill he's been since we started camping.  It was quite nice.  Dave went to Killington to do downhill mountain biking.  Jax and I had the truck so we could go explore.  We didn't.  


Our campsite.
Finally figure out how to do the panorama on the iPhone


Mileage:

Feet: 16
Saddle: 37

Knitting:

I knitted a bit on the socks.

Books:

"A Million Years in a Day: A Curious History of Daily Life"
by Greg Jenner 

Status: Finished

Immensely entertaining and educational! The author walks us through a typical day, and discusses the history of the key parts of the day from keeping time to brushing teeth to breakfast to food to going to sleep. I really enjoyed this!


"War Brides"
by Helen Bryan 

Status:  Never going to finish 


Ugh, not at all well written and the author kept losing the plot.


"Fahrenheit 451"
by Ray Bradbury


Status:  In progress

Immensely interesting and eerie, how did he know what life would be like now way back then?

Sincerely, 
Beth, happy to share the biggest event of the week.  The review of Dave's new bass was published!

Smith Creek Mandolin - Christopher Bass Double Bass Guitar


Monday, June 25, 2018

First 150 mile bike week, camping, and hiking

I wanted to give a shout out to one of my running friends, rather a woman I met through running and we became friends. She is in her 60's and started running at 59.  Her goal was to run her first 5K the year she turned 60.  And she did!  And we all know how that goes, the 5K was awesome so we roll into the next distance and we all celebrated her first 10K, and then the excitement and the feeling of accomplishment was so great she tackled a 1/2 marathon.  A HUGE undertaking!  After her 1/2 things just stopped going well.  She took a break for a few months and then got back to the Couch to 5K training to start running again, and that wasn't working, so she did a walking program.  It wasn't the same.  She hung up her running shoes. She was very sad, and you could tell how she longed to get back out there but her body was not going to let her.

Nearly a year later, a month before her approaching retirement at the end of June she had a long talk with her body and it agreed and she started Couch to 5K again!  Running is where it is at for her, clearly, now, at age 65, she can't give it up!  To say I am honored she calls me a friend is beyond measure.  

People like Connie give me the courage and motivation to keep on keeping on.  All of our situations are different, some of us have bad days and want to call it quits, some of us have hip replacements, and can't wait to get out and run and bike again.  


Never give up. Never surrender.

Monday (3.2) As unwise as it was I went out.  I ran into Mikey at the gym and he said "Walking or Running?"  I didn't really know what I was going to do, but for sure I was walking up that first hill. Sorry Shari, at least I went up the hill?  My body hurt, the only thing that didn't hurt was my nose, which was a surprise considering all the pollen I'd been breathing in and honking out.



Monday beer, mostly because Leslie can't.


Jax didn't get either of his peeps to take him anywhere, but I did take him on a ride in the car, it's too hot for him.  He is pissed with both of us, while he is nearly 8 and close to 56 years old in human years, he is very much a sullen teenager when he doesn't get to do what he wants to do. 



So this is it?  A ride to the store.  Sheesh, I should pee on the floor.  -- Jax


Tuesday (0) My greatest activity was mowing the lawn.  It desperately needed it and I had a Fat Alberta (Throwback Brewery) waiting in the fridge for me once I completed that task.  Jax helped me scoop poops in the backyard, pointing out that his reserved for poop area had been neglected and he had to poop in his pee area.  He is a quirky weird dog.



Lives up to the hype!


This is the first time I used the mulch function on the mower.  I think the lawn has been deprived enough of grass clipping fertilizer, right?  After all of that and actually mowing the stupid hill, Jax really wanted to play. I found Buddy the Glow Ball and we played with that.  I was surprised Jax was willing to play with Buddy, he'd been outside for quite some time, being relegated to an outside ball is akin to death for that dog.  But he was good with it and we fetched, yes both of us have to fetch because of someone throws like a girl.   He brought Buddy into the house and plopped him down near his food tray, I guess Buddy is back in the rotation. Oh, goodie it will be fun to see a glowing orb in the darkness.  It is kind of freaky from time to time.



Guard dog on duty!


Wednesday (76) Ro, Charlotte, and I went out to Long Island to do a Metric Century, we aren't really good with the metric system so we did 76 miles.  It was a nice loop Ro and Mark do once in a while and Dave and I joined them last year.  Long Island is flat.  You pedal the entire time.  I feel surprisingly good for pedaling for over 5 hours!  Ok, there were two ferry rides between Greenport and Shelter Island and Shelter Island and Sag Harbor...  SO really it was less than 5 hours of pedaling.  :)



me, Ro, Charlotte


Tom from the EBAC Tour de Testosterone suggested we three gals would click.  I was dubious as I always am, he was right.  It was like we'd been hanging out together for years.  I love it when that happens!


Relive the ride here.


Other than the old man in the bright red car trying to take the three of us out, it was a good solid ride.  



Me and Charlotte ready to sleep on the ferry ride home!


Can't wait for our next adventure where we roll our Ruby's!!


Thursday (1)  Off to camp!  The experiment this time was a late start and setting up camp while it neared dark.  Jax and I had a couple laps around the campgrounds.  All went well and we enjoyed some 'smores before bed.



Mmmmm melted marshmallows
You can kind of see Jax's glowing eyes at the tip of the stick


Friday (28)  Dave was off to Thunder Mountain in the morning, I dropped him off and then picked him up.  I really didn't need a vehicle, other than to find a package store and get some beer and a newspaper so we could start the evening fire.  Jax and I went on a hike and had a nap and procured beer and a paper in time to pick Dave up at 2.  We may also have been munching on some of the most amazing chocolate covered pretzels.


He's impatiently waiting for me, it was slippery!


My adventure was a road ride.  I found on eon Ride with GPS that would be about 40 miles.  I was a little unsure of a 40-mile ride with long climbs two days before a Connecticut hilly 45-mile ride so I found a shortcut.  HA!  Yes, it was shorter but with about 1,000 feet of the elevation in a one-mile climb (versus a 4 or 6 mile climb).  DOH!  I walked my bike up most of that, it was steep and littered with runaway truck ramps.  Not smart on my part, the elevation maps are there for a reason, as well as the segment being called "Monroe Hill the second steepest paved climb in New England"  I have no idea if this is true or not, it was no joke.


I accidentally trespassed on this bridge.


After that, I was rewarded with nearly 10 miles of downhill.  I did remember the write up on this ride, 20 miles of climbs with 10 miles of downhill.  The climbs to the point of my short cut were nice and enjoyable.  I missed the enjoyable climbs with my shortcut.


The Town Pound is where lost sheep are stored till their owners claim them.
For the local folks, you can see the remnants of one near Lenny Lane in Burlingame.

I also discovered I have to adjust my back derailleur to fully use my cassette. I still think I'd like a bigger cassette, I'm struggling more than I need to up hills.  But maybe actually being able to get into the 32 tooth cog will be all I need?  Pretty sure this all loops back to when the cable bird caged (frayed) and I never got it adjusted correctly (under Dave's watchful eye).

Relive the ride here.

All in all, I'm not disappointed I am 9th on the leader boards (out of 9) or that I walked my bike a fair distance.  I didn't give up and go back the way I came.  Plus I broke 40 MPH on the bike for the first time this year!!


Tardis!  - Rowe MA


Looking at the elevation profile, maybe a clock stupid route would have been ok?




Saturday (6) It was due to be rainy most of the afternoon.  Dave went off to Thunder Mountain, with the truck, I didn't need a vehicle and the cell service is so bad he could text me for hours to come to pick him up and unless I happened to stand on the picnic table I'd never get the message.  


Let's go this way Peeps!  -- Jax


Jax and I went on a short hike on part of the Mohican Mohawk Trail.  I suck at poorly marked trails.  We still had fun.


Another place for lost sheep!


After Dave got back we took another hike where I had a bit better of bearings and a couple map pictures on my phone.  We saw some beautiful areas and also hiked on a bit of the Mohecain Mohawk Trail.  I need to find some history about this trail.  


The picture doesn't do it justice.
The black dot is Jax


Sunday (45) I made plans months ago to do the Seven Lakes Ride Pedaling for Patients with Ro, Darleen, and Grace.  Since meeting up with Jess a few weeks ago for a ride, with Dave, Spud, and Jax in tow didn't go to bad, we decided we'd try it again.   This time the ride started from a school and Dave had a better idea of what he'd want to do.  He mostly cleaned up Spud and finally got an eMail sent off to the guy reviewing his Christopher DBG (Double Bass Guitar).  The initial review was excellent!  


Me, Dar, Grace, Ro


The ride was a charity ride raising funds to help cancer patients pay for medical bills.  


Me, Grace, Ro
Dar did the short course


Relive the ride here.

Mileage:

Feet: 10
Saddle: 150

Knitting:

Nothing to report, I think...  I can't remember, but probably no knitting this week.

Books:

"A Million Years in a Day: A Curious History of Daily Life"
by Greg Jenner 

Status: In progress

Still interesting!  



"The Loom"
by Sheila Gillus

Status: Finished

Parts were hard to follow because the female character names all started with L and male with J. After reading the prologue this was by design, and reading the prologue made me appreciate the book even more than I did after I finished it.

The lives of the slaves were horrible, some only ever wanted to be free, others to just die and be done with the torture.

Worth the time to read, pay attention to the names and the symbolism in the book, it is really striking.




"War Brides"
by Helen Bryan 

Status:  trying again for the 4th time, per Goodreads I've already tried to read this three times and couldn't get into it.  Maybe it wasn't good bedtime reading?


Personal:

My mother wrote a family friend passed away, he suffered a stroke in December and months later, when things didn't get any better he said he'd had enough.  I remember Mr. Kizer very fondly.  He and my father worked together and had a great friendship inside and outside of work.  Of the many Mr. Kizer memories my favorite is when I was an adult, working at Ford, his wife was our departmental secretary (they were called that way back then).  Mr. Kizer came to visit Pat and I greeted him with "Hi Mr. Kizer" as I had done since I was about 10 years old!  He looked me square in the eyes and with utmost sincerity said: "We are at work, you can call me Phil."  I said "OK Mr. Kizer."  Mr. Kizer and Pat (she was always Pat to me) laughed!  You don't undo 15 years in two seconds!

I remember Phil (that is still hard to say!) and his first wife Lynn visiting one night and getting raucous with my parents doing the twist in the living room.  I swear the whole house shook with the four of them acting like teenagers.  It was really cool to see that side of my parents.  

Definitely many good memories of Mr. Kizer/Phil.  I still have a hard time calling him Phil and it's been 40 years!  

Emily Dickinson said it best:  

Unable are the Loved to die
For Love is Immortality,
Nay, it is Deity—

Unable they that love—to die
For Love reforms Vitality
Into Divinity. 


Emily Dickinson

There has been an incredible amount of death of loved ones in the past month.  Maybe this will help ease someone through the pain.  I do believe Emily was correct, the memory and spirit of those who are loved never dies.  The body may no longer be with us, the spirit is.

Recap: 

All in all an exhausting in a really good way week, I'll be curious how my recovery goes and if I have any issues.  I feel like I did a good job of getting enough hydration and rest.  (As of publishing this on Monday night, I definitely needed to take today off and may take most of Tuesday off, my body isn't exactly happy or unhappy, but sending out warning signs I should listen to).


Sincerely,


Beth, kinda sad we can't have 'smores before bed every night.  (because she needed to end on something not so morose as death)