Monday, December 31, 2018

Change is the only constant in life

12/24/2018 - 12/30/2018

Monday (2) - Dave was busy cooking and I was busy staying out of the way running last minute errands, well going to the stores to watch people meltdown to remind myself not to sweat the small stuff and most stuff is small stuff.   Isn't there a saying about if you aren't going to be a good example be a bad example or something like that?

3:00 p.m. Jax wandered through the kitchen, it was time for him to go somewhere.  He has us really well trained, doesn't he?  I was going to take him to Riverwood but there were three or four cars in the public parking area, and while they may or may not have been going there, they may have, we went to Grills, the Chase Hill entrance.  My goal was a mile maybe two, totally depended on what Jax seemed like he was up to.  I knew he was going to have an exhausting day on the 25th, he, of course, didn't.    Big accomplishment, he ventured on to and went over the Tomaquag Brook bridge on his own.  The way out he got to the stairs of the bigger bridge side and waited for me and he led me across.  We walked till my watch buzzed a mile and turned around.  He would keep going, again a rested Jax is a happy Jax and a tired Jax is a Grouchy Jax, he didn't seem to phased and was happy to run ahead and down the hill and on to the bog bridge and over the higher part of the bridge.  Who is this dog?

And over he goes!

Tuesday (5) - I got out for a Christmas Day run and meandered this way and that.  Made 5 miles, I was kind of surprised when the watch buzzed and it clearly said 4 miles, huh, I have a mileish to get home and wasn't in too big of a hurry, I'd have about 90 minutes before we would leave for MA.  Contemplated a 10K but decided 5 was good and I'd like the time before going to the in-laws.  I got home to "We are leaving in 30 minutes."  Huh?  It isn't even 11:30...  There is no point in starting an argument.  27  minutes later I was washed, dressed, hair washed and dried, even some make-up!

We left in another 30 minutes...  Jax was beside himself with glee.  Oh sweetie...

Nice celebration, far too long of a day getting back at midnight.

Wednesday (5) -  Felt like crap, like the crap stuck between the treads of shoes crap.  I agreed to meet up with Ro and Mark for a hike and contemplated backing out.  But it was 3 ish miles and it would be nice to see them.  I won't be seeing them much between now and July with all their travels.  I felt better after our hike as did Mark and Ro who got in at 2 a.m.

Me and Ro on the 'chairs' on the ledges of Mt. Tom Trail.

Jax and I had a nice in-town evening walk so I could see the lights, he was most tolerant of this, he prefers the trails and being off leash.  Don't we all buddy, don't we all.

Thursday (3) - Massively uninspired hike with Jax in Patchaug.  I managed to successfully complete the loop I messed up a few weeks ago, otherwise, neither of us were into the hike.  Some days go like that.  We got an hour of fresh air and sunshine.

There is a tree in the house.

Friday (0) -  It rained all day, I had zero motivation.

To entertain my brain I started a puzzle.  I used to do them with my Dad over Christmas Vacation and I found a neat one at the discount store and instead of giving it as a Yankee Swap or to my Nephew, I kept it.

We keep him very busy!
If it wasn't for plans to meet Rachel for beer, and we ended up bar hopping, I would not have left the house.  Bar hopping translated to a beer at Beer'd and then another beer at 84 Tavern on Canal because they started brewing their own beer and Rachel, a beer geek was curious about their creations.  Two IPA and a Brown Ale.  I'm NOT an IPA person so these smelled like the usual cat piss to me, the brown ale was good, better as it warmed but thin like a Guinness.  Definitely, something to have with a meal, or have more than one.   Beer'd ran out of their Vegemite IPA, it's a Rachel thing, but they did have some Midnight Oil stout square in my dark viscous beer wheelhouse!

The experimental sweater.
Not sure if I'll have enough yarn for sleeves.

Saturday (3) -  Gosh a week off even with the plethora of activities and it feels like I've been away from work a month, a good thing, but we are all sleeping in past 7 a.m., a bad thing.  Jax better get back on his 5:50 a.m. wake up calls by the morning of the 2nd.  I don't want to have to use a clock.  I've LOVED not having that glowing beast on the nightstand on my side of the bed for a few years now.

Woody Hill 

As no one got any exercise yesterday,  it was really important to get outside today.  Jax and I went out to a local preserve/management area and hiked around.  He was really focused so I was constantly on alert for whatever it was he had set his nose to finding.  A couple of other hikers.  I love hunters orange, you can see people from so far away and when he zigged and then zagged I knew I'd see people over the next rise, and sure enough.  They were far enough away it didn't look obvious when I turned around and ushered Mr. Nosey along a different cart path.  It took him a bit to be convinced we really should go that way...  I forgot his leash and his communicator device wasn't working great, running into people wasn't going to go well because I'd be nervous and he feeds from that.  This is truly a case of it's me not you.

The cool stripey yarn

Sunday (3) - Took the beast to Barn Island.  He kept heading back to the car.  Some days it goes like that.   Dave and I finished the puzzle, and now I want to start another one. 

Eddie:  Ah yes 50K miles on Eddie, he is 2015 put into service July 27, 2016 (Vinnie died on the side of the road with 250K miles on him that morning).    Honestly low miles for me for 29 months of driving, I didn't take two trips to MI, and one trip to NH so that makes up for some of the missing miles.  My yearly car mileage is about 25K.


Because I saw this cool yarn which knits up into broad stripes I had to buy it to make a baby sweater.  The experimental sweater is still a work in progress.  I'm getting a little concerned I won't like it, but I knew starting the project I could end up frogging the whole things.


Still plugging away at George Washington.  He really had some teeth problems and was rather a flirt, the war is over and Sally Fairfax is back in the picture!


Beth, spending the last day of 2018 remembering injury and illness and love and loss are constants in life, deal with them, learn from them, and move forward. 

Sunday, December 23, 2018

Low Miles Low Stress

Monday (3) - In the NYC office early to set up for and execute the team meeting.  All went well, pshew.

Rockefeller Center
Such a beautiful tree.

I took myself on a walk down Madison Avenue, 5th Avenue ogling the lights and enjoying the sites.  I really do enjoy that, hopefully, I'll continue to have the opportunity to do this in the future.

Tuesday (0) -  NYC for General Counsel awards ceremony, went well, pshew.  Crazy busy day couldn't wait till I finally got to visit the Beer Table and plop my butt in a seat for the train ride home.

Harlem @ Park and 123rd
Wonder if they ever unearth anything when they demolish a building.

Jax's biopsy came back, benign with the caution it could have become cancerous. Glad he got a clean bill of health.  I've gotten a few of those biopsies, feh, no biggie.

Wednesday (3) -  Slow walk with Ro as the heels and dresses of the previous two days played havoc on my hips.  Crap I thought I had that all worked out, but no.  I felt better after the walk but as the day progressed I was back to where I started, going down the stairs backward.  Oh, it is so much fun to be meeeeeeeee, not.

He does love his bed, his fire, and recently started playing with Maxine again. 
His gums must be feeling better!

Thursday (0) - Back side still quite ouchy and tender might as well not annoy my annoyed SI or hip or whatever further even though it is going to rain on Friday and being outside in the rain if it doesn't warm up, isn't going to be fun.  Whatever.

This actually annoyed him, but I couldn't help but get into his space.
Squeeee super dork.

Friday (3) -  The run in the rain was really enjoyable.  Short due to my cranky hip.  At one point I didn't want to get too close to the water for fear of the ocean spray.  Yeah, let that compute for a second.

True Story.

Saturday (3) - Took Jax for a hike in the afternoon once the rain really stopped and we finished Dave's Christmas shopping.  He usually goes on Christmas Eve and if I'm home drags me with him.  I asked if maybe he wanted to go when the weather wasn't so great on Saturday.  After a bit of tooing and froing about how he NEVER involves me in this process, he seemed to remember that he did either IRL or via texting me in a panic from Talbots (for his mom), and he put together his list and we worked through it.  I think this is the earliest he's ever been finished and wrapped presents.

I was so tempted to drive around the block to get to zero.

Sunday (4 + 3) - I wanted to go for a ride but didn't want to deal with lots of people so I left later when all the competitive people are done with their morning workouts and the recreational athletes get their turn to piddle around aimlessly on the trails and roads.

Following the red line from the left of the map to the right was the plan.  I made through most of the yellow patch.

Turns out I really wasn't all that into a ride.  I did explore part of the Groton Cross Town Trail and some other loop in the Merrit Farm property (part of Groton Open Space).  Not what I was looking to ride.  I was out for an hour of ride time so that's not bad.  It is hard to judge what is or isn't an adequate mountain bike ride.  I was soaked in sweat and my heart was pumping, calling that good seems reasonable to me, but only 4 miles?  I think its the time in the saddle, not the miles when it comes to off-road riding.  The adjustment I made to the level the seat on Barney was perfect, I'm still having problems with the quick release not holding the seat to the right height.  I need to take him in and have an appropriate thingy installed. Dave didn't think he had the right circumference bracket for Barney's seat post.

That Way?

Or That Way?

Or Down There?

Dave's mountain bike ride ended with Razz breaking a knuckle after hitting his hand on a tree, he was going back down the hill Dave was at the top of cobbling together his broken bike to ride out of the woods.  Dave broke two spokes, the chain, and the rear derailleur.  Most likely one spoke broke, caught another spoke and then the whole mess lodged into the chain and then the derailleur and chain broke when meeting up against the chainstay.

Since neither of us had a good morning on our bikes, far far far better than Razz, though, we took Jax on Mount Tom trail, it is new to me and had a lovely hike.  It is tough to find an interesting hike, part of the appeal of night hikes is you aren't bored with the same old same old.  This was definitely full of awesome things to look at and lots of tricky parts!


All in all low miles this week, low stress, other than Monday and Tuesday, but even those weren't as bad as last year.  This is all as odd me as my lack of wanting to sleep all the time.  Usually, the end of the year comes and I can barely keep my eyes open and want to strangle anyone crossing my path for the last week of work.  Not so much this year.  Must be I'm on the right path with whatever the hell is going on with my immune system.  I have two diagnoses, both along the same spectrum of Connective Tissue Disease but I think part of that is just being able to give me medication, off-label prescribing is very much frowned upon. 


Still plugging away on the experimental sweater.


Still plugging away at Washington, although I fear my iPod is going to die.

Beth, thinking what a crazy ride this year has been.  Hopefully, 2019 is clamer.

Sunday, December 16, 2018

Couple of bad beers this week

12/10/2018 - 12/16/2018

Monday (5) - Nothing spectacular, but damn my knees hurt during and after this run.  I need to adjust the fit on Barney is my thought.  Something isn't quite right and this is the second time I've ridden and then run the next day with a similar result.  It is also time for more shots, but I'd like to see how I do without them for a bit.

Shadow Figures by Common Roots

Met up with some new gals to knit, there are three of them and I made 4, all live locally and they got from house to house.  Seems like it will be a fun group, definitely lots of local gossip!

This popped up on Facebook this week.
Gizzy and Sage - they were like an old married couple.
November 2009 - Gizmo is 9 in December and Sage is just turned 7

Tuesday (Gut and Glutes + 2) -  Day 6 of Booty Core (there will be no before or after pictures, go ogle Leslie's perky patootie) not doing this daily, 2 times a week, maybe 3 if the urge strikes me to exercise at home.  The surprising thing is it is helping my SI Joint alignment issues.  Tuesday morning I was really hobbling and hurting, going down the stairs was excruciating, to the point I thought I'd just live on the third stair from the top.  Walking around campus painful. After the workout, everything seemed back to normal.  Weird.

Another FB memory. 
Jax and Sage
When she wasn't trying to teach him a lesson she kind of liked him.
December 2012 Sage is 10 and Jax is 2.
Took Jax out on a night hike, he was less than thrilled because we kept an eagle eye on him.  Usually, the creep stays 30 feet in front of us, but no, he was lagging behind.  We kept an eye on him so he didn't eat any deer or other poop and end up barfing before surgery on Wednesday.

Watchaug Pond with the moon reflecting into the pond

Wednesday (5) - Hills with Ro, always a good time to catch up and chat.  Peppy walk when it didn't feel as peppy as usual.

Jax surgery went fine, only one surprise, a cyst under the gumball. Tissues and fluids sent out for biopsy, he may need more surgery if the cyst comes back, but who knows.  He was pretty stoned and frankly pretty ticked he got shorted a meal.  He had me up at 1:30 a.m. to go out and then stood by his food bowl looking for his missing meal.  Persuading a dog to go to bed when he doesn't want to is much like persuading a drunk person they don't need another drink.  It's not an easy discussion and someone growls.

Dude, what the hell? 
I've behaved myself - well besides my recent 2 a.m. tissue barfing incidents. 
But really, they are in that single serve box, who wouldn't be tempted?

Thursday (3) - Holiday Fun Run/Walk at work.  We had a light snow for the occasion, it was very festive!

Welcome Beth?  That is so freaky... 

I had to backtrack several hours of work on the latest sweater.  Dave commented I've been unknitting as much as I've been knitting.  I am managing to get the right number of stitches back on the needles and getting started again correctly, but damn all the work I did Tuesday I had to undo on Wednesday and I'm back to where I was on Tuesday now.  Ugh.

Winner!  But not by much... :(

Friday (6) - Less than energetic feeling run at work, faster than I have been running which is odd for feeling so un-energetic.  Probably a Friday thing?  Who knows.  Definitely not like Friday's of past where all I wanted to do was sleep all afternoon.

Ok so this was from Saturday - I didn't have a lot of Jax pictures.
Zoooommmmm  outta my way lady, coming through.

We took Jax on a daylight to night hike.  His first since surgery.  He was happier in the day light, and slogged along after dark, about what we expected.

Saturday (3) - Jax and I hiked in Burlingame and he was peppy and perky!  That was nice to see!  We did some new to him trails, nothing to strenuous.  He was happy to be out in the day light.

He actually sat long enough to take a couple pictures.
We've not enforced good doggy behavior with him, he is a wild child.
He is rather handsome, don't tell him I said that.

Sunday (2) - Between the rain drops we took Jax to Burlingame with the intention of slowly ambling camp roads with the expectation the skies would open up and the rain would start.  We veered off on to some single track and then back to camp roads.  The sun was out and it was sprinkling and Jax was running around like a mad man.  Clearly feeling back to himself.  We followed where he led and made a couple suggestions as to the direction he should take, but mostly we followed him. 

No Hero by Evil Twin (why do I keep thinking I'll like their beer?)
B3 by Transmitter Brewing - feh
Work took me to NYC for the evening (early a.m. meeting) I like it during the holiday season and am glad when I get an overnight to go see the tree and the shop windows.  Not exactly thrilled with two nights, or the exceptionally bad beer I picked up at The Beer Table.   Tomorrow the rain will stop and I can wander and take in the sites.


After un-knitting and re-knitting the latest sweater I am at a good point.  I am also at the panic point of "am I going to have enough yarn"  the second of the third partial skein is now the body of the sweater and I have about 6 more inches to knit plus put arms on the damn thing!!!  I laid it out and it looks ok, no picture, I spaced on documenting it.  I was sad to leave it behind in RI for two nights.


"George Washington"
Ron Chernow

Status:  In progress

This is pretty good, except for the fact my ancient iPod keeps freaking out.  Which in and of it self is hysterical, I can't listen to a book about the father of our country because my iPod 5th generation is freaking out.

Guess if all I have to complain about is buying a few bad beers my week was pretty damn good!

Beth, lacking things to whinge about, does this mean she has to give up blogging to the 5 people who read this? 

NYE 2011
Whaddaya saying there Beth?

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Finally less rain and more riding!

12/03/2018 - 12/09/2018

Monday (5.6) - Much peppier than Friday's run, that was nice.    I had a couple extra walks.  Feh whatever.   

He's melting

Tuesday (5.8) - Hills with Ro, we flip-flopped because she was hiking Lantern Hill with some of her retiree friends on Wednesday morning.  She opened up the option to me.  The gales of November are still strong, but it's December, everything seems to be a month off.  I put on an extra layer and didn't spend the rest of the day cold.  I need to dig out my lobster gloves.

Kicked my butt as Rachel promised it would

Wednesday (2.5) - Dave's Friday trip to Boston got rescheduled to Wednesday.  He was taking a Christopher DBG (bass) and an amp to a studio musician for him to record a demo. My morning full of meetings disappeared, so I went with the retirees to hike Lantern Hill.  That was fun!

Sue, Ro, Dar, Me

Thursday (2) + Ass and Abs - Night hike with Jax on the trails I hiked with Gizzy so many years ago.  We got a little turned around in the campground in the dark,  Jax didn't care and didn't know, he was happy to run on asphalt un-oppressed (no leash).

Staring contest

Friday (3.6) - Well, with layoffs come reassigning work.  I ended up with a new assignment, managing the departments budget.  I won't get full responsibility till the guy leaves in June, but there are things I need to know for year-end budget/accruals.  It has been a while since I've managed a department budget and the financial systems have changed in that time period.  From what I can tell it has improved, well, for the most part.  I had 30 minutes scheduled for this conversation and the guy leaving isn't exactly thrilled with this change in his status, he was planning on retiring in 2020, this pulls that up by 18 months.   After 45 minutes it became clear he wanted to talk and to teach and I wasn't going to cut him off because it was time for me to go run.  We talked nearly 2 hours and I think he feels a bit better about relinquishing this responsibility to me, and we had a plan going forward for him to slowly let go and work himself out of that part of his job. Having had to relinquish job responsibilities when I was on a layoff wave, I know how much it sucks and how married I got to my own processes. He needed the time to talk and to vent and to process and to show me what he has been doing and has built.  Hopefully, it was therapeutic for him and he feels confident what he has built will be appreciated and used.

Hopping down the bunny trail

We took Jax on a night hike in Arcadia.  Sunset was 4:17 p.m. and we started just before that.  Hiked for nearly an hour, so weird hiking in the dark, cool but weird. 

Saturday (5 + 3) - Went for a short mountain bike ride between Haley Farms and Bluff Point.  Explored some new to me trails.  I can really build a good ride in there once I learn a few more trails.  Plus it is on the way home from work for me.  An hour is a good ride time.  I rode up on a deer.  We stared at each other for a bit and I rode on, ended up riding in a circle and happened upon the same deer again.  S/he was cute, probably used to bikers or humans, s/he watched me and romped along for a bit and then I was off in a different direction.  That was really cool.  Such peaceful animals, also destructive and rather tasty!


Jax was a little ticked he was alone, I hadn't been on the Hopkinton side of Grills in a while so I took him over there.  I've never parked on that side, I've always gone from the Westerly side.  It was totally different and very cool.  Jax was totally NOT into the Tomaquag Brook Bridge.  He willingly went on the board walk and as I walked up the stairs to the bridge he gave me his "oh hell no" look and did a 180 looked like he was contemplating jumping in the brook to avoid going over the bridge.  I quickly got back on the board walk so he didn't execute his not very well thought through plan.  Guess it's nice he likes me well enough to want to follow me?

Contemplating going off the board walk to avoid the bridge
The bridge is behind me.

We had plenty of trails to wander around on and some water to wade through and sticks to break and leaves to jump on, he was pretty thrilled and in a really good mood.  I know, weird, how dogs have moods.  I think he was thrilled to be out in the daylight on the trails.  After a week of night hikes he was happy to see the sun.  Guess we are all happy to see the sun during this time of year.

Sunday (9 + 1) - Decided I'd explore the new Mountain Bike trails at Woody Hill but first I'd ride down to the end and ride some trails I knew and were already comfortable with.  Parts of that area give me the heebiejeebies and parts seem ok.  I think the area, once populated, was reclaimed by the government and what ever the original plan was went belly up and the land was deserted and un-maintained.  Don't quote me on that.  In any event there are lots of stone walls, quite plentiful in New England, a couple foundations, one really creepy looking shack/house, an old well, at least one pond, an old quarry, miles of dirt bike trails, and I'm really not sure what else.  I've heard there is a monument, this is on the list of things to find.

I got very turned around, I know, no surprise there.  I was a little freaked out, which rarely happens, I'm chalking it up to me being tired, I'd been on the bike over an hour at that point.  The new mountain bike trails, all named at some point, but not marked through the length of the trail, some times marked at intersections, sometimes not, loop around each other like a bowl of spaghetti. At one point I jumped on to a different trail because walking 10 feet through the brush seemed like a "new" trail might send me in the correct direction.  Although in hind sight I wasn't even sure what the correct direction was!  I managed to back track to an intersection that sort of looked familiar another biker was there, one of the nice kind who say "Hi How's it going?" instead of pedaling along, I wonder if that is more of a roadie thing, ignoring other bikers.  Or maybe it's a chick on a bike in the woods that's the difference?  Wait, can I say chick?  Am I going to get my woman card suspended again?  He pointed me in the correct direction, I'll fully admit I was planning to go in the wrong direction and I couldn't remember if the sun needed to be in my face or at my back to get back to the car!

Took Jax on a very abbreviated hike in Riverwood, that too was fraught with disaster, erh, um, ADVENTURE!  :)  I think he didn't really care one way or the other about getting outside, when I got home he was curled up in his chair barely lifting his head to greet me, and went right back there after the hike and stayed there till Dog Dinner time, clearly he was more content sleeping the day away.  Good on ya old boy!


The new sweater was as warm as I thought it was going to be!  Yeah!  The weather has cooperated and gotten cold.

The sweater on the needles is progressing along.  I had to frog out a few inches when I realized I forgot to do something.  I managed to get it all back on the needles and sally forth.  I had to make a decision on the color change.  I ran out of the darkest bison fiber and switched to the lightest figuring the arms would be better in the medium.  I'm still suspecting I'll frog the whole thing but who knows maybe it will look ok as a tri colored sweater.  It will be thin however very warm, bison is great fiber for retaining heat, much like alpaca.


by Ron Chernow

Status:  In Progress

I'm enjoying this one more than Hamilton and far more than "The Warburgs".  Washington was rather a dandy with his desire for fashionable clothes and carriages.  I found that interesting.

All in all a pretty good week, a bit of this and that.


Beth, waiting impatiently for snow and has no idea why the spacing is so off on this post...  gremlins, it must be gremlins.

Tuesday, December 4, 2018


November 26 - December 2, 2018

Wow, hard to believe this year is coming to a close.  It didn't start out on much of a high note, at least I had a few answers to the chronic pain and constantly feeling like I had the flu, hungover, and had just run a marathon all at the same time symptoms and some sort of a treatment plan.  Then the advocating for myself, after a stern talking to from my MIL, started.

Monday (5) - The rain was due to start later, and the 'feels like' temp was 47F, that didn't seem so bad, I still put on a headband but left the gloves in my backpack (ignoring my "if it's under 50 wear gloves" rule).  It felt way colder than 47F and the South East wind while making the trek up Shore Road pleasant is a harbinger of not so great stuff weather-wise.  Fortunately, all that seemed to transpire for us was endless rain.


30-second walk 4-minute run, took a mile for my hips to loosen up and to even feel like running.  The next mile was a bit better, a little looser, a little faster.  The third mile presented itself with an opportunity to see how few steps I could get through what, from a distance, looked like a really big puddle but was only 2" deep where the road crowns.  I picked up my feet really high and only my left toes got wet, and it was fine by mile 4.  It would be way more fun to slosh through the puddle but with the temperature and my sensitivity to cold, not the best idea.  I was back to struggling in mile 5 but knew I'd be done in 15 minutes or less so I 'muscled' through it.

Westerly Town Hall and Christmas Tree

Tuesday (1) - Elliptical warm up and then core and glute work, along with the proper way to do a lunge to engage the glute.  My left hip has been wonky, a re-occurrence of my 'hammock injury' from July. I have to walk about 1/8 of a mile to get to a normal gait, but I can regain my normal gait (waddle as I've been told).

Spying on something

Interesting conversation about understanding how someone with an invisible illness feels and the ability for people around us to either understand or not believe us until it happens to them.   I was and am and always will be very appreciative of the people around me who accept what I say when I say I can't, it isn't that I don't want to, it is that I physically cannot.    There is pushing through the pain cave during a race, that is temporary, imagine it as permanent and relentless, the physical, the mental, and the emotional state of those minutes during a race.  I've often heard "revenge is a dish best served cold"  I started to wonder if this is my "cold dish" because I did not believe someone or I pushed someone's buttons enough they whipped out their voodoo doll and started poking pins in it?  The answer I got from my friend was no, you got a bad hand of cards, hopefully, you'll get to play them all and get a better hand soon.

Hideous partition in the alcove I have to look at.

I will never know why my body decided to attack itself, it did, it happened, period.  Fortunately, we have modern medicine to help, although the medications I am on are decades old and there has been minimal progress in research and development of treatments for Lupus and Connective Tissue Diseases, there is something, that does work, for me, for now, to slow progression and reduce the symptoms.

I got it removed.  It didn't even fit in there.

Wednesday (7) - Hills with Ro, the wind, OMG the Gales of November are wicked for sure!  We were both fighting moving forward into the wind and enjoying the push moving with the wind.

My boss emerged from the shadows after a month hiatus and showed up at our weekly meeting.  That was a shocker.  Kind of made me a little nauseous because layoffs are happening.  She did say that I was pretty safe.  There are changes pending. cue eerie music

Contemplating barking at the mailman

Jax and I had a nice walk, he is training me to STFU and just let him sniff and wander.  I really need to bring some earbuds and listen to a podcast.  My headlamp went out halfway through the walk, I was glad we were in the park and not in the woods.

Thursday (2) - Elliptical warm up and butts and guts stuff.  Really sort of sucked on a nice sunny day, but oh well win some lose some.

What's That?

An afternoon of meetings ended with a surprise "Catch up" with my boss and someone else, someone not someone from HR.  Well, that was a relief.

I have a new boss.

Many years ago my company, in my opinion, at the hands of an overpriced overpaid egotistical consulting firm, went through a flattening process, increasing the minimum amount of direct reports to 7 and the maximum number of layers in the company to 7 to make us more agile.  Well, again my opinion, they got re-hired and re-paid to reprint the same report and provide new branding.  Yeah, I'm scratching my head too.  Didn't the incoming CEO pay attention to what the last two CEOs did?  Why can't these guys be like a cat and piss in the corner of the office to claim it?  Why do they need to redecorate and cause upheaval?

Lori asked if I had any questions.  I said, "Is Tara going to want to manage every minute of my day? Because we both know THAT isn't going to work."  She chuckled and said, "Yeah, it's pretty clear you allow someone to micromanage you at the start of a project, and then there is that point where you subtly and firmly let them know if they don't back off, they will be taking it over the finish line. The smart folks, back away, and let you take it over the finish line."

Bottom line:  I continue to have a job, I continue to agree to and seek out new assignments or projects, I continue to stretch myself beyond my comfort zone.  As a benefit, I stay employed (most important) and I get to work on interesting projects (very important) and with interesting people (keeps me amused).  I mean that in both the interesting and interesting sort of way.

Maybe I should be nonplussed by all this, honestly, SSDD, it really doesn't seem worth the effort. I get paid to do this if I wasn't:  BUH BYE!

Friday (6) - Run at lunch I wasn't feeling it.  I was glad I put on long tights, it was a raw cold.  I muddle through 4 ish miles and called it good.  I didn't sleep well, thanks Jax, and I think that was the bulk of it.

The rain started just as I was getting home and I got the boyz out for a walk around the old Burlingame Campground.  They need daily fresh air or they are miserable, or maybe that's me projecting on them, it could go either way.  We walked super slow and that was just fine, Jax could run ahead and run back to check on us.  Funny when you walk a path repeatedly how many new things you see.  For the first time, I saw the old electric poles along the side of the fire road.  We traced the lines and one ended crumpled on the ground and another was twisted on to a tree and the tree grew around it.

Saturday (3) - We raked leaves in the morning, the third time for Dave and the first time for me.  Probably the remainder of the lazy neighbor's leaves will make their way on to our yard, we figure in time for the first snow to make it look really ugly when we shovel.   Jax supervised, he enjoyed being outside unrestrained, his old age is making him less likely to do stupid stuff like wander off.

Dave went for a ride in Arcadia and while that was on my bucket list for the day getting Jax out was more important.  We went to a trail I haven't been on in years.  Although Strava says I was on it in 2013, I don't remember that.  I do remember all the times taking the Treacherous Trio there, and walking out and back with them.  Three huge dogs and me, and only once did I have to leash all three of them kinda made me realize that if they wanted to the 240 lbs of them could drag me across the forest floor.

Woo hoo

We had a nice hike, went on the exciting part by the stream, Jax liked that best if I was to guess. He was pretty wiped out when we got home, supervising Dave and I raking was a big responsibility.

The fun part!

Sunday (1) - It's raining.  I doubted I'd get out but it stopped and it was 4 and Jax was pacing.  We took him to Burlingame and got in a mile wandering around and I fell on my ass a couple times on the slippery leaves, good times!

Be careful it is slippery!


The Warburgs
by Ron Chernow

Status:  Paused

This one may be a better read than listen, there are so many characters in this family and I was getting them confused.  Or maybe I'm simply in need of a mind candy novel.  Hard to tell.  I was getting a little insight into German culture and that was nice.  The German Jew definitely didn't have it easy, far less easy than the German Gentile during WWII.

by Ron Chernow

Status:  Started

Maybe a biography will be better one person to focus on rather than an entire family?  I think I need a detective story, honestly.  I'll get back to all this history in due time.


I finished the sweater on the 29th.  And from my notes, I started this on September 15th, so 10 weeks of knitting.  Let's say the average is 10 hours a week of knitting, that makes 100 hours to knit this sweater.  I probably should keep track for the next one.   If I figure what an hour of my time is worth and add it to the cost of the materials that is one freaking expensive sweater.

I started a new one by a different designer.  I only have a few skeins of yarn left in my bin, yeah!!! and this one looked like it would work well with the three remains of the Icelandic wool I made a few pair of socks with and the socks shrunk and a SIL now has them, or I think she does or I gave them to someone else with cold feet.  Or hmmmm...  I'm really not sure.  I was just so pissed about the whole thing I'm really not sure where they ended up.

It is kind of plain looking, but there are subtle details on the front and down the sides.  It will end up going from a dark to a light color in three stages.  I think it will work, if not, well then I frog it and figure something else out.  For now it keeps my fingers busy and my mind occupied.

Beth happy to run a couple times a week and knit daily.